Ah, work. I’ve always had a bit of a love/hate relationship with it. On one hand, I like what I do, developing websites is something I do get a lot of joy from. It’s what I studied after all, so logically I should enjoy it. I’ve been working at the same company for the last 2 and a half years, and I’ve done relatively well thus far. The higher ups seem pretty content with the work I do, even if it’s nothing complex. It’s definitely not the worst job, far from it.

At the same time though, I can’t help but also feel rather frustrated at times. Sometimes they don’t give me the clearest instructions, or I barely get anything to do, so I’m just sitting there watching videos or working on my website. What frustrates me about the instructions in particular is how they insist on having meetings instead of just writing down what I have to do, I can get a little confused that way. I get that having visuals is helpful, but there are very simple things that don’t require having to sit down and talk. Oh, and I sometimes have to do things out of work hours… ugh.

What hasn’t helped matters is that lately I’ve been having a lot of trouble focusing. Whenever I try doing something, it’s very easy for me to get sidetracked. That’s not the job’s fault of course, but it’s something that does really frustrate me. It makes things so much harder to do. I have been getting things done, but at times I do feel a bit frustrated that I can’t do things as efficiently as before. To the point where I fear getting fired, only time will tell if we get to that point.

I am thinking of getting another job someday, but I do feel pretty comfortable working part time, it gives me more than plenty of free time to do what I want, while also being able to go to the doctor or therapy. I’ve been wanting to switch to a better job for quite some time, it was one of the goals I set myself earlier in the year, but I thought “maybe I’m rushing things…” and I decided to wait for longer. I do want to polish my skills before then, though. I’ll admit I’m feeling a bit rusty at the moment…

Because of this, I felt a bit down today, not to mention, tired. But look who came to my aid…

Anyway, those are my thoughts regarding work, for the moment at least. If something happens, I won’t hesitate to post about it.

See you all in the next post.