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As I always like to say, March is the actual start of the year. Here is where everyone goes back to work and school, and is when my boss says they do all the important business with companies and all that. And the start of the month was marked by well, my birthday. I turned 26 on the 2nd, and my boss actually let me take the day off, if I’m not mistaken, that’s company policy. I didn’t do much aside from going downtown, but I did have sushi as tradition demands as well as some treats because why not. Just the day after that though, there was a fire close to where I live, and I got a few dozen alarms on my phone about it as some areas nearby had to evacuate. Nothing happened in my area specifically, but there were a lot of ashes raining from the sky. That was wild, but thankfully no one was hurt. The rest of the week wasn’t super interesting aside from that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Halfway through the month, I went out with my friend downtown like we do every month pretty much, this time with the intent to celebrate my birthday. She hadn’t gotten paid in time, so we ended up going out later than we would’ve liked. Despite that, we had a lot of fun that day, the weather was nice and not super hot like the rest of the summer had been. We ended up having our usual Asian teas (they were super fulfilling) and then we went for something smaller, a pizza to be exact. At the end, we went to the supermarket and got some things we needed, and finally we went back home. While I do like to go out on my own for the most part, going out with someone else has its perks too, I feel like I can express myself a bit better that way.<\/p>\n\n\n This month was also the start of school for both of my siblings, as such, my mornings have been a bit quieter, which is nice since it lets me focus better at work. I have had to take care of my sister a lot more during the evening though, up until my mom arrives. It’s a bit tiring, but it’s not so bad. Compared to how it was when I had to deal with her when she was younger, I would be so close to losing it. I lack the patience to deal with kids if I’m being honest. And the weather has been pretty weird too, being that we’re right on that transitional period between summer and fall. Some days have been pretty hot, others have been cold and rainy. I do like it when it cloudy because it’s my favorite weather for taking walks and such.<\/p>\n\n\n\n In general, March felt very intense and long, but it also went by really fast and wasn’t super eventful despite that. If that makes sense. Not the worst month I’ve had this year… so far. Maybe things will mellow down in April now that everything’s back to norm- ah, who am I kidding, I have a bad feeling about next month and I’m not sure why. Guess we’ll see…<\/p>\n\n\n\n March is also more often than not, an anxiety inducing month. And this year it was, sadly, no exception. Early in the month, I began to feel really weird for no particular reason. But then the thoughts began to pile up… the first of my concerns, well, work. It has been slow and boring lately, I haven\u2019t been assigned a whole lot and that does have me a bit worried. This happens sometimes, but now I get the feeling that I might be considered redundant and I could get fired. Even if that isn\u2019t the case, I do want to seek another job eventually, and I know that won\u2019t be easy with how shitty the job market is these days. Really, I just want a place where I can develop my skills more. Even though I\u2019ve been working there for 4 years at this point, I feel like I\u2019m not really that experienced even now. I feel very unmotivated on this area as a result.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Then there’s the fact that I had a dream about someone I’m no longer friends with. The dream itself wasn’t like, intense or anything, all we did in it was talk casually and not much else. But it was enough for me to feel very anxious once I woke up that morning, and ever since I’ve been thinking about them way more than I’d like. I don’t know what it means exactly, does my brain think this matter isn’t completely resolved or what? All I can think about is how much of an idiot I can be when it comes to friendships, there have been so many things that could’ve been easily avoided, yet I still find ways to fuck it all up. And it’s weird, because at first I was starting to feel better about all this, being that it felt like a weight had been lifted off my back… much as I hate saying that. I don’t get why I have to feel bad about this now. It’s really fucking stupid. Maybe I miss them even if I don’t really want to be friends with them again. Weird.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I\u2019m genuinely at a loss on what\u2019s going on inside me. I don\u2019t know if anything I\u2019ve been thinking about has any meaning, or if I feel like matters aren\u2019t completely resolved. Or maybe, and perhaps most likely, I\u2019m just overthinking things once again. I have a tendency to give things way too much thought, often to my detriment. When it comes to my work situation, I do try to remind myself that unless anything’s confirmed, I’m probably safe. And as far as the ex-friend goes, well, I guess I do yearn for having people online to talk to more so than wanting their company again. Regardless, I can’t say I’m enjoying all these stupid ass thoughts I’ve been having lately. If I could tell my brain to shut up, I know I would. But alas, all I can try to do is somehow find a way to control my emotions before they take over me, which is easier said than done. Oh man.<\/p>\n\n\n\n As usual, I got some more electronic devices. This time I’ll split them into different categories, starting off with the ones that work perfectly or don’t need too many repairs:<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n Next, the ones that work but need major repairs:<\/p>\n\n\n\n From left to right:<\/p>\n\n\n\n And finally, here are the ones that I can’t currently test:<\/p>\n\n\n\n Here are my new toy cars…<\/p>\n\n\n This is the gift I got at work for my birthday, a brick version of an old Mazda race car. Officially licensed, as it turns out.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Here are the two figures I got this month, Kabuto from Pok\u00e9mon and a Mario movie figure.<\/p>\n\n\n And finally, one Hong Kong dollar from 1998.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I need more restraint when it comes to spending my money, that’s for sure. That said, I do want to order some things from Japan one of these days…<\/p>\n\n\n\n Sometimes I like to try sweets and other things that seem unusual, but I haven’t found anything interesting… until now. This is a Mystery KitKat from Brazil. You might be wondering what’s so mysterious about it, well, the color is a bit weird for one. It’s kind of… orange. Or yellowed beige computer plastic. And as for the taste? Hmm… it reminds me of something but I can’t quite put my finger on what exactly. It tastes slightly fruity, if I had to put it one way. Overall, it was pretty good, I haven’t had a KitKat in forever. I really need to get some of those Japanese ones again, once I get the chance.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Well, so that was March. Not a great month, but compared to how it’s been for the last few years, it really wasn’t that bad. It just dragged on for more than it should’ve… and it’s not even over yet, it’s the 27th by the time I’m posting this. April doesn’t give me a ton of hope, it never does. Somehow, shit has to hit the fan at some point… I would hate to see if I was right once again. There’s no way to know until we get there, so let’s see what happens. I’m dreading it, either way. I also need to file my taxes, as I do every year.<\/p>\n\n\n\n There isn’t much else to say, I’m just glad it’s Friday and we all get to rest at long last, I just wished the weekend lasted longer. I also hope I get paid in time, last time I had to wait a few more days than usual.<\/p>\n\n\n\n See you all in the next post.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Well, it’s that time of the year, ugh. March… my nemesis. I hate this month, at least since 2021 it’s been a complete and total pain in the ass. And that’s despite the fact that I was born in March, then again I don’t think it’s exactly uncommon to hate one’s birth month. 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